Long December

I don’t know about you, but the song on repeat in my head this December is not Santa Baby or Joy to the World. No, this year I’ve been humming a lyric from an old Counting Crows song: “It’s been a long December…” Illness and tragedy and sadness have parked themselves in our neighborhood this month, and I haven’t handled it well. In fact, on Saturday night I sat despondent on the edge of my bed and said through tears to Ryan: “I’m just. so. sad.” Sad that the kids and I spent the majority of the month fighting fevers instead of building gingerbread houses. Sad that the Advent activities I planned never materialized. Sad that it gets dark so early. Sad that the neighbor kids’ daddy chose to end his life instead of fight for it. Sad that Daisy’s cancer is back with a vengeance. Sad that Connecticut is in such unspeakable pain. But then…oh, but then…God sent my 8-year-old son to pull me from the slop and murk and disappointment of this month with a simple request: “Mom, will you please mail this letter?” Photo-3  God is with you… Yes, sweet boy, YES. Immanuel. God. With. Us. Something great is going to happen. Not right now, but sometime. Yes, hope is rising. It’s always rising. Hang in there and don’t be worried… Yes. Oh, please, yes. Because…

“Just like He came the first time, in the margins, and the earth received her King, I know He is still here, ruling the world with truth and grace. I know He cares and He sees and He will be found. I know He is the light of the world, even though the night is so dark, so pitch black.”

~Jen Hatmaker

Fighting for joy with you this December,

Kristen

(Letters to Newtown can be mailed to P.O. Box 3700, Newtown, Connecticut, 06470)


  • Heidi Barker

    Thank you so so so much. I have also been sitting on the edge of my bed and tears have been welling up for some time. This has been a hard December, but your son just brought me back from my sadness. Please tell him I said so. PS He really DID help someone.

 

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